I guess I'm going to be really free really soon because I'm gonna graduate from SP *Excited*. Just last Thursday, it was my official last day of school at Singapore Poly. I admit that I have been looking forward to this day since day one. One of the main reasons being that the school is located quite far away from my home. However, distance is only one issue which I eventually managed to get used to.
I always get the same old question which every one gets "Why did you choose SP?" I can never give an answer. Deep down I know it myself that I regret my choice. On top of that, I really dislike my experience in school. Disclaimer: I'm not assuming that everyone had a bad experience just like me in poly, I'm merely typing all these in my point of view. Personally I prefer the education system in secondary system. Oh, yes you may argue that polytechnic prepares you for your future job etc. But then again, it is still an education institution and it pains me to be wasting my school fees when some lecturers/tutors teach halfheartedly or can't even teach at all. Yes, there are still a handful of teachers who care about their student's academic progress and well-being though. But then again, for some modules, I honestly would have scored just as well if I were to depend solely on my notes and not turn up for my classes. If not for my parent's and relative's belief that I can only learn when I'm in school, I would've depended on myself to complete my diploma instead. Everyday I just feel less and less motivated to turn up for school. I'm not proud of it but I have skipped so many classes at my own expense.
Most of my peers are really competitive, academically. Yes, they may spend time with you during lunch time or breaks. But before an exam, everyone disappears. Times where I needed help and went around to ask questions, I realized that only I can help myself solve it. :( It seems as though mostly everyone's idea of "friendship" is different. However, I know for sure that I want true friends and not merely acquaintances. It's kind of sad when you think that these group of people were your friends but during the holidays or when we're out of school we don't even contact nor go out together.
All of these have taught me to be independent and that I can only depend on myself to achieve greater things. I'm so grateful for all the good people that I've met along the way. People who I will cherish forever :) Thank you for being there for me.
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If that is really the case, have you asked yourself why do they treat you like that? If only a few then it is normal but if everyone else or many start treating you this way too then maybe the problem lies within you. I'm no friendship guru but I do know that if someone meant something, you would have taken the initiative instead of always waiting for others to do so. You never know that maybe just like you, they are waiting for you to pop the question. Don't wait till it's too late. Show that you really care for a change. Don't just say it, PROVE it. If things turn sour, at least you know you have tried.
ReplyDeleteNo worries, I've asked myself that question a lot of times and realised the problem doesn't lie with me. :) I'm glad that not everyone is like that and there are people who will still be there for me and they are more than I can ever ask for ^^ These are the people who will stay and motivate me in life and want the best for me as I would want the best for them. I, myself know it best, that I have tried my best to make things right but I guess some things are inevitable. It's normal to lose some friends along the way as you slowly learn who are the true ones to keep. Thank you for your advice though. :)
Deletejust curious but what course are you in ?(:
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